June 23, 2020

Personally God spoke to me about the true dying to self: Many people think when they follow ‘the leader of movement that God has appointed’, then they can identify themselves like Joshua to Moses, or Elisha to Elijah, or Timothy to Paul.


There is nothing wrong picturing it that way, because we can learn the divine lifestyle and characters that the leader has in his/her life, so we can walk in whole truth as someone whom God has determined to submit under his/her authority.


However, the Holy Spirit stated to me: Die from your desire to be Joshua, Elisha or Timothy. Don’t think as someone who will ‘carry the movement or function in it’ with the portion of the Spirit and double anointing. No need! Set yourself free! That is not the real purpose of your life. The real purpose is to die on the cross.


This is what we call ‘to be like Him’. Everything related to “I WANT TO BE LIKE….” must die. Just like Paul, the only desire that we must have is:


Phillippians 3:10-11 (NET) My aim is to know Him, to experience the power of His resurrection, to share in His sufferings, and to be like Him in His death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.


There are 3 important points from the statement above:


1. My aim is to know Him, to experience the power of His resurrection


The above desire is very intimate. The desire that we must always have is to have fellowship with Him. No matter ‘what we want to be and who we are’, fellowship with God must be our top priority. We can lose all things (position, wealth, etc).  But one thing that we must guard is our desire ‘to know Him’. So whenever or wherever our spirits always cling to God. This is the feeling of satisfaction that no one can take away and can’t be replaced by worldly satisfaction.


2. To be like Him in His death


We know how Jesus died; humiliated, tortured, full of blood and mockery. Paul stated that he want to die like that! Paul’s desire is very contradictory with the desire of the servants of God especially nowadays. Today, many servants of God want to have a large congregation, become famous and anointed preachers, become revivalists for their cities, blessed, honorable and also rich. This is totally contradict with Paul’s desire!


3. To attain resurrection from the dead


Jesus died and He rose on the third day. Paul had experienced resurrection from the dead when he was stoned to death (Acts 14:19-20). So what does Paul mean with ‘to attain resurrection’? He wants to be ONE WITH CHRIST IN IMMORTALITY!


The important point of Paul’s three desire above is: ‘HE WANT TO BE LIKE CHRIST’, and it has nothing to do with outward things like position, wealth, fame, etc. For him all those things are rubbish! But if eventually Paul became a very influential apostle; his capacity, dedication and integrity recognized by other apostles and his ministry has been very influential until now; apparently all of that is no longer Paul. He already died from all outward desires! The Father Himself who promoted him so he was resurrected as a different person – a person who was ONE WITH CHRIST!


Galatians 2:20 (NET) It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So the life I now live in the body, I live because of the faithfulness of the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. 


That is the only desire we must have. I don’t need name, fame, position, or human recognition. All I need is Christ in me!


Ps. Steven Agustinus